Mom's doing pretty bad again. Bleh. I hate feeling like this. Yaknow, unable to breath, constant worry, crying until I feel like my eyes are going to bleed, dreading the phone ringing in dear that it's bad news, ect.
It sucks is all.
Then to beat it all, my bestfriend made me bawl lastnight when I was at my worst. Don't preach to me. I'm not being brainwashed. I'm confused and thinking about things. I'll make my own decisions and I don't need any guidance about that kind of thing. That's ridiculous. Saying it's my fault if my mom dies? Damn, that's just pretty low no matter what the reason. And no, it's not my fault when bad things happen to her. I love her with all my heart and NOBODY is going to tell me I don't!
Anyway, on to happier things. I feel like a total skankface right now. I've slept all day mostly. I'm not kidding. All. Day. Now I need to go to sleep for school tomorrow and it's pretty much impossible because a person can only sleep so much, right?
I baked a cake today too! And it was good. I couldn't believe it. I baked something and didn't absolutely ruin it. ;D
I still have people saying I've changed (people meaning one person in this case) and that's BS. I'm not the one who's changed, they have. Lol, jeeze. I can't believe the situations she's put herself into. She's pretty much ruined her life with stupid mistakes and lies. Things she can' reverse, but the facts will never go away. I don't think she can pull herself out of this hole this time. She's stuck tight. -____-
Well, I'm going to bed soon, so...later?
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